this is probably one of the times where i realized about the significant of minutes and seconds. last monday, after looking at my result from the past weekend race, i was a little discourage. out of so many things that i had done for the past 5-6 months, somehow the result does not really satisfy me. i am happy on certain things of the disciplines, especially the bike. but yet, the overall is not fulfilling.
then, last wednesday, i looked the numbers up again, it turned out that i had a better result. wow....can't imagine, just a few minutes different in numbers actually made my perspective change. it made me think differently. then, i said to myself, '...wow, this changes everything...' and i mean everything. everything from training, to result, from what i had done, to what i need to do.
i remembered at the end of last season, i said to myself, the coaches, and my teammates, that i wanted to be better on the bike. so far, so good. i know i'm still not the best, but i really do feel that i'm actually better on the bike, especially after the accident last april. but then, as i was recalling all that, i think about what mike neill said to me at gulf coast.
'it takes 10 years for anybody to be good at anything'
oh my goodness, after all that i had done, i still have to figure out something else. still, i have to better myself on other discipline. so far, as for swimming, coach geri had been threatening me to do certain things to me so that i can improve. well, to be honest, it kind of help and i hope coach can see it. as for the run; now this is the part that i thought i already kind of figure things our. it turns out, not really. i'm not sure why. in the last few months i have been thinking about this, since i really want to figure this out before 'the race'. then suddenly, yesterday, one of my teammates said something about nutrition on the run. and so it 'hit' me. i had changed my nutrition on the run. i had been experimenting with other stuffs. i have not stick with what has been working for me from last season. so my decision for now to improve is to get back to what has been working for me, especially on the run. nutrition, never thought i could effect me that much. even though for now this is only on paper, nothing has been proven yet. so for now, i'll keep on training and see the result in a couple of weeks. and oh btw....i have 6 weeks to 'the race'.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
Monday, June 16, 2008
realize
i remember when i started that it was just about trying to make my belly flatten down a little bit. i remember the day that i realized one morning as i woke up that i was 'fat'.
after about 2 to 3 years, i started to realize that bigger reasons are needed for me to keep doing these training and racing. this past weekend, i found a couple of them. it's the thrill of being fast, the thrill of trying to outpaced certain people, the thrill to compete, the thrill to never slow down even though i'm at about 100 feet from the finish line. i enjoyed every second of them.
as i recalling the feeling that i felt at pcb with the sun felt like it was frying my skin on the run leg of the race down in pcb, i started to imagine what HE went through back then, thousands of years ago carrying the CROSS across the heat to the calvary on the wounded body. thank GOD for UR sacrifice that we may be saved. and, also to always remind me that whatever it is and however hard it is that we go through down here on earth, will never be exceeded the strength that U provide for me.
those are the reasons that put me in the position where i learned quite a bit about myself, about life, about what i strive for, about my goal for each year.
at the same time, i realzied that there something that i would like to give back to the surroundings that have given me so much in terms of anything that i've obtain. then again, i also realized that still i have so much to learn, as one of my teamates said, be a 'grasshopper'.
'live life to the fullest' is what people usually said. i prefer the 'live life full of learning and realizing'. learn certain things to make one realize about other things.
every race is always different, even though u raced in the same place every year. learn something in every race at every year. there's got to be a way to be everything under the sun.
after about 2 to 3 years, i started to realize that bigger reasons are needed for me to keep doing these training and racing. this past weekend, i found a couple of them. it's the thrill of being fast, the thrill of trying to outpaced certain people, the thrill to compete, the thrill to never slow down even though i'm at about 100 feet from the finish line. i enjoyed every second of them.
as i recalling the feeling that i felt at pcb with the sun felt like it was frying my skin on the run leg of the race down in pcb, i started to imagine what HE went through back then, thousands of years ago carrying the CROSS across the heat to the calvary on the wounded body. thank GOD for UR sacrifice that we may be saved. and, also to always remind me that whatever it is and however hard it is that we go through down here on earth, will never be exceeded the strength that U provide for me.
those are the reasons that put me in the position where i learned quite a bit about myself, about life, about what i strive for, about my goal for each year.
at the same time, i realzied that there something that i would like to give back to the surroundings that have given me so much in terms of anything that i've obtain. then again, i also realized that still i have so much to learn, as one of my teamates said, be a 'grasshopper'.
'live life to the fullest' is what people usually said. i prefer the 'live life full of learning and realizing'. learn certain things to make one realize about other things.
every race is always different, even though u raced in the same place every year. learn something in every race at every year. there's got to be a way to be everything under the sun.
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