realize

i remember when i started that it was just about trying to make my belly flatten down a little bit. i remember the day that i realized one morning as i woke up that i was 'fat'.
after about 2 to 3 years, i started to realize that bigger reasons are needed for me to keep doing these training and racing. this past weekend, i found a couple of them. it's the thrill of being fast, the thrill of trying to outpaced certain people, the thrill to compete, the thrill to never slow down even though i'm at about 100 feet from the finish line. i enjoyed every second of them.
as i recalling the feeling that i felt at pcb with the sun felt like it was frying my skin on the run leg of the race down in pcb, i started to imagine what HE went through back then, thousands of years ago carrying the CROSS across the heat to the calvary on the wounded body. thank GOD for UR sacrifice that we may be saved. and, also to always remind me that whatever it is and however hard it is that we go through down here on earth, will never be exceeded the strength that U provide for me.
those are the reasons that put me in the position where i learned quite a bit about myself, about life, about what i strive for, about my goal for each year.
at the same time, i realzied that there something that i would like to give back to the surroundings that have given me so much in terms of anything that i've obtain. then again, i also realized that still i have so much to learn, as one of my teamates said, be a 'grasshopper'.
'live life to the fullest' is what people usually said. i prefer the 'live life full of learning and realizing'. learn certain things to make one realize about other things.
every race is always different, even though u raced in the same place every year. learn something in every race at every year. there's got to be a way to be everything under the sun.